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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:45

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

This is soul school!.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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Im still living with it.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I could never make a relationship work though!

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Why does Africa have all mineral resources but she is suffering economically?

(And it was in our own minds.)

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Why is pornography still alive and not illegal? Why doesn’t the government do about tricking women into them?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She loved him until the end.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

She wouldn,t have been !

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But, we were locked up after school.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But ive been too sick for many years..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

We were not on the streets..

Put me off passion for life!!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He resisted the act ,that day.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

As i do to all so called friends.?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I will be 64.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My family never makes their pension either.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I was very sick at this time too.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

One cannot live in the past .

So, i spoilt her more .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Ive learnt so much.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I think the readers, may guess!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I was scared of men, in general

Especially a lifetime of it.

She was in good health!

It was going to be , some day.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Comes on , in middle age.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Would this be the day?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And i lived it daily.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was 9 years of age.

Who then, do I blame.?

I said to her

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was seconnd youngest,

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

What did i know ?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She found it foreign!.

He knew the spot.

I waited trembling.

But it wasn’t much.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Was to survive, this bastard.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My life is so biszare .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I have no regrets .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

All the time i was locked up.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I don,t even have a pension.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I write beautiful poetry .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We all went to grammer schools

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She married twice! .

When she asked me how she looked .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

So whats the point in blame.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.